Surrender
My innate need for control has its own strong mind and will. While the world as we know it changes, my own internal world tries to keep things ‘the same’. Stopping the boat from rocking because that way I feel a sense of ‘ok-ness’ (technical word!). Let’s keep things going, that little voice in my head whispers, she whispers louder at night, when the world sleeps, she gets grumpier. She is lining up neat, symetrical rows. Whispering, what is working and what is not working. As night gets darker, and deeper, her voice gets louder. Till [...]